Sunday, July 31

Holocaust

The Holocaust was the genocide of approximately six million European Jews during World War II, a programme of systematic state-sponsored murder by Nazi Germany, led by Adolf Hitler, throughout Nazi-occupied territory.
The whole year 11 English class went for an excursion to the Jewish Holocaust Museum today.
Before this excursion, I never truly grasped the full extent of the Holocaust. I felt sad about it, sure. But all I knew were facts. Approximately 6 million were exterminated, fact. 
In one of the videos that were shown just now, it was quoted that 'numbers make you numb'. It does. What is 6 million? It's just a number. But then.. they related it to 60 MCG Stadiums. 1 stadium can house 10 thousand people. I started seeing faces.. 6 million isn't just a number anymore. Out of that 6 million, 1.5 million were children. My age. Can you imagine? Going through the Holocaust at the age of 3? 16? 21? 30? 

They showed us a video. It was taken by an American after Liberation. It was, in fact, a real video that was taped. The images of a pile of dead bodies, of corpse, stripped naked so thin, still haunt me. And these are just images! I can't imagine what the survivors would have had to go through. Some of the people in the video, the one's that were killed, still had their eyes opened. 

I don't know. People were taken away from the ghetto to be 'relocated' and 'resettled' in a better community. Or so that's what they've been told. Only to reach there.. and then the selection process occurred. The sickly, the old, the young, they were told to get a 'shower and disinfection' and they would meet with their families after. Only to be brought to the gas chamber unknowingly. Can you image the terror and the manic fright that went through everyone inside the gas chamber that they realize what is going to happen? 

There were about a 100 people in hiding, under one of the ghettos. A lady then had a baby. You can silence a toddler by giving them a slap on the arm or something, silencing a baby, however, is not that easy. Do you know what they had to do? They suffocated the baby. To save themselves. Would we be able to make that decision? I really.. just, feel sick thinking about it. 

We had a speaker, a survivor, as well. He told us.. that it was pure luck that he managed to survive. He told us as well.. then when he got off the train, he was with his mum. He turned away for a second, and she was gone, forever. A friend started crying.. I almost did. I don't know how to process that. Just having your mum ripped away from you. Just like that. In a blink of an eye. He told us, that everyone would be called out of the houses in the ghettos, and the guards would just pick randomly, and the people who were picked had to go in the back of the 'vans'. He told us he knew, that being picked was no good, that it was a horrible thing. He told us that he found out later on that those who got picked to go into the van.. were gassed. To death. That the vans were portable gas chambers. 

I don't really know how to process all these information. It's personal now and it cuts deep. I am sickened by the Nazi. I don't know how they could just obey and kill, so mindlessly. I don't judge those who stood idly by. Because those who spoke up were brought immediately forward to be killed. I wouldn't know what I would have done in that situation. Can't even begin to imagine. I applaud and respect those who showed courage. Who fought back. They are true heroes. I don't understand how the guards and the Nazi and the doctors could exterminate one so easily. 

"How can a human being do this to another?"




Friday, July 29


the blonde in my hair is so obvious, never actually realised. 

i'm so excited for monday, not because of school, no, ew, 
but because we're going to the holocaust museum. 
that day during english class we had to do this 'game', 
although i wouldn't call it a game because it was so horrid, 
one of the questions were 
"your daughter is dead. 
if you stepped on her you could reach higher
to get fresher air. 
would you step on her?" 
it's related to the holocaust but 
how.. like how do you answer questions like that!!! 

a friend ran out of class crying because the questions were so horrible, can you imagine? 

anyways moving on to a lighter note, 
poker night tonight. won't be drinking though since im on antibiotics, 
will probably not even play. 
hahaha my brain is not functioning well. 

Thursday, July 28

oh the irony

i was just reading some old blog posts, and there was one post i wrote 'people asked if i enjoy melbourne, i do, can't really say i'm homesick'. ohhh if only i still felt that way! hahah i think if everyone i love is in melbourne then i wouldn't be as homesick. i don't know. probably not. id still miss all the food and the heat and the beach and the sun and the fact that kk is so small sometimes. meh, home will always be home.

Don't Forget

Did you forget

That I was even alive


Did you forget

Everything we ever had

Did you forget

About Me 

Sunday, July 24

back to school

so close to falling into depression from the thought of going back to school.

whehhhhhh.

i miss home so much. wai so homesick ah

Winter Holidays

3 weeks in KK
Yeps, imagine all the activities I managed to do. 
Anyways, on the day I arrived, it was the 1st at 10pm, went to BBcafe by Tanjung Aru Beach and caught up with everyone. 

My Birthday





Night Out With My Girls



First time meeting Wendy and we were already emo-ing it out to each other.
Hahahaha. 

Nexus Resort






you can't tell but most of us were hungover in this photo :p 

Finally got to meet Bella, the golden retriever :p
A' Sutra Fashion Show

Went to lava right after... :p


Lava again the next night
 


7K FUN, not run




Wendy's Last Night + Karaoke + Salim @ 3am


Kara left :( 

Brandon left :( 

Second last day in KK, spent it with my primary friends. :) 

Can't believe the holidays are over, and I'm back in the cold and gloomy Melbourne. School is starting on Tuesday and I'm honestly no where near ready for it. I have not touched my holiday homework, I'm dead... 
Back to reality :'(