it becomes dangerous, when you let someone become so much a part of your life, that they become a part of you. that when they hurt, you take on the pain and put on a brave face, fighting their demons for them, taking on their battle scars. willingly throwing myself in front of any threat, throwing myself into a path of self destruction. this happens, and who do you turn to, for not wanting to ease back the pain onto them, except yourself. it becomes an inner turmoil, you learn to wedge out of sight out of mind, so far deep it ends up soaking into your being, more and more it fills, till it leaks out your pores. pessimism, maybe this is how it happens.